.: Reclaim Your Life :.

 Bismillah.

The book 'Reclaim Your Heart' by Yasmin Mogahed sits on my table. It has been there for days, weeks at stretch. Left untouched, just seen from a distance.

Why haven't I read it? I left it there with the intention to peruse through the pages. To gather the gems. To harness the profound meaning behind every sentence, every page. 

Yet, it stays there. The only thing that touches the book is dust. 

Many things had happened in the last few months. Life-changing events. Moments where I never thought I would ever experience. Times when I felt like no words can ever express the inner turmoil. 

And there were times. Times when I felt like the impossible kept happening. That there's always hope. There's always somebody looking after me. Someone who always has my back. Someone who stops me from sinking deeper. Someone, that someone,  is ever persistent in protecting me. 

Allah.

Allah.

Allah.

And as I learn to crawl back into my life. To resume some kind of normalcy. 

As I look for ways to reclaim a better version of myself, I stumbled upon Yasmin Mogahed's book and kept it on the table for as long as I can remember.

Hesitating. 

Not because I am afraid. Rather, I want to learn how to walk. I want to run again. 

From Him.

And I want to learn to reclaim my heart through His book.

May Allah ease, ameen.

7.41pm, Malaysian Time

. : Eid Adha 2020 :.

Hold Tightly to His rope. 

As'salaamualaikum. Has been a while since I last updated this blog. So much have happened for the past few months, yet the heart is thankful for the countless blessings that came with it. 

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah. All praises to Allah SWT for everything. 

Having said that, I'd like to take this opportunity to say Taqabbal Allahu Minna Wa Minkum and a happy Eid to everyone who reads this blog. 

May Allah SWT bless you with everything that is good in this life and the hereafter, ameen!

Remembering Hajj. 

9.55am, Malaysia Time

.: Flee To Allah :.

Feeling lost.

With the recent announcement of restrictions in Malaysia, I can't help but feel overwhelmed. At the moment of writing, I am trembling, shivering. Perhaps it's my anxiety kicking in.

Rather than allowing it to overcome me, I think this would be the right time to say this would be the perfect time for all of us to band together and come out stronger than ever.

This is the time to flee to Allah.

It saddens me that mosques are closed for the next 2 weeks or so.

It saddens me that we are not able to perform umrah.

It saddens me that the numbers of those infected are increasing.

It saddens me that the medical staff are overworked.

And it saddens me that life, has become less than normal.

Am I scared?

Yes. In fact, I am struggling. 

But am I optimistic we can overcome this?

Yes. Because I believe Allah is there. Allah is All Hearing. Allah is All Seeing. And Allah is the only one who can take the sickness away.

This is not the time to fear the sickness.

This is the time for us to flee to Allah. 

To make doa to Him. To ask for His mercy, help and forgiveness. Ask Him for strength and patience. Ask Him for things to become better by the day. Whatever that crosses your mind, just ask it from Him. 

This is the time for us to remind each other about Allah. That He is in control of everything and He is the best of planners. Pray more. Recite more Quran. Make more salawat. 

This is the time for us to look at ourselves and see what we can do to make things better. Look out for our family,friends, neighbours, and community. Give donations to ease the burden of those affected by this sickness. Avoid crowded places. Stop mass gatherings. Always wash our hands with soap and water. Focus on good hygiene. Maintain your distance. And assure others that things will insha'Allah,eventually get better. 

This is not the time to panic. Not the time for victim blaming. Not the time to find fault with others.  

This is the time to flee to Allah.

Even if you are not a Muslim, just do your best to make the situation better. Help to reduce the spread. Get tested if you feel unwell. Stay positive.

May Allah take the sickness away and heal those who are infected by it, ameen.

8.35am, Malaysian Time