Thursday, November 27, 2014

.: Visiting memory :.

The empire strikes back.

Oftentimes we go through life, experiencing a feeling or moment. Sometimes it lingers for a while. Sometimes, it disappears along the passages of time. These feelings or moments, come and go as it please. Yet sometimes, for some unknown reason, it resurfaces. The feeling or moment that had taken place many odd years ago, comes back in an instant, and it feels as though it was just yesterday that the particular feeling, that particular moment, occurred.

The decisions that were made then, the consequences that came along with those decisions, return as a haunting, a fleeting reminder. One pauses for a while, static, half wondering should the decisions that were made then be made again now? Or should one open-up to new possibilities should one choose to take on a different path? What lies forward remains unknown, yet the exhilaration, the mere thought of it is unspeakable of.  

The force is weak in this one.
1.54pm, Malaysian Time

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

.: Ilmfest 2014 :.

The culmination of knowledge. 

Alhamdulillah, despite missing the first day due to work engagements, I had a brilliant time at the conference on the second day. The speakers were amazing, the experience was phenomenal, and the fact that family and friends from other parts of the world flew over just to attend it, was mind-boggling. So much to digest, and so much more to implement, there are just not enough words to describe. Love the camaraderie and may Allah S.W.T reward those in realising the conference into a tremendous success. Allahumma ameen, thumma ameen. 

Among the GEMS taken away from the conference (paraphrased): 
  1. Many times when we hear about something, we think it refers to other people. However, sometimes we have to take it personally. Take it personally and reflect on yourself. 
  2. It is alright to want to look nice, to want things, etc but do not let it consume you. 
  3. Wake up with this in mind: "The weight of this ummah is on my shoulders. Be the change for this ummah."
  4. Real change, actual tangible change, that change is going to come from you, and it has to come from you, even from a micro-level. Don't think someone will do it for you. 
  5. A lot of people say they are grateful, but it is just a statement unless it is attached to the heart. Constantly check the status of your heart.
  6. Don't dwell on your sin. Make repentance and move on. Add more good deeds. 
  7. You have been working on yourself, but don't forget the people around you. 
  8. Don't let people think or convince you that you are insignificant. 
  9. It is not about how much knowledge we have, but it is about how we use the knowledge.
  10. Be extra careful from becoming a ritualistic Muslim. 
  11. Relationship is like a tree. If the roots are strong, all is strong. To be able to stay together for years, is something to be treasured, cherished and respected.
  12. We are different, but we have to come together and cover each other's back. Cooperate. 
  13. Da'wah is to upgrade the standard of living for people. 
  14. Positivity: That's what we need to be the change.
  15. Be careful that when you speak, it doesn't hurt people.
  16. Love is not dormant, it is an action based verb.
  17. Complaining about Allah S.W.T vs Complaining to Allah S.W.T. Know the difference.
  18. Keep the focus clear, not the ego. 
  19. If you are right, the truth will come out. If you did wrong, seek forgiveness. Focus on the relationship. Trust.
  20. The prayer is a comfort, a shelter, a refuge. It protects us from shamelessness and doing evil.
  21. We fight among ourselves that we forget the real enemy; the devil and our desires.
  22. A catastrophe is a catastrophe if you allow it to realise its' cause.
  23. Your projects will only go far as your own ability will allow. 
  24. Create value before asking from others. 
  25. Touch hearts before asking for hands. 
Obviously there were many more GEMS, but these are the few that I managed to compile. Look forward to attending the next event, the National Achievers Congress 2014, and Divine Speech. 

Knowledge acquisition, from the cradle to the grave.
11.11am, Malaysian Time

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

.: Clustered ornaments :.

The closure. 

Traveling, can sometimes open up the mind, heart and soul to all sorts of things. Things we never thought of, and things that we never knew we had it in us all this while. Thus one gets to gather numerous experiences, invoke past memories, harness innate feelings, as well as establish new relationships. 

And yet, even with the exhilaration and amazement of this new-found hidden part of ourselves, it can also lead to the reality that such things would perhaps be better left unknown, undiscovered, and undisclosed. 

Tearing up. 
2.17pm, Malaysian Time

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

.: 哀しいキセキ :.

Encased memories. 

 “Allah gives us gifts, but then we come to love them as we should only love Him. We take those gifts and inject them into our hearts, until they take over. Soon we cannot live without them. Every waking moment is spent in contemplation of them, in submission and worship to them. The mind and the heart that was created by Allah, for Allah, becomes the property of someone or something else. And then the fear comes. The fear of loss begins to cripple us. The gift—that should have remained in our hands—takes over our heart, so the fear of losing it consumes us. Soon, what was once a gift becomes a weapon of torture and a prison of our own making. How can we be freed of this? 
At times, in His infinite mercy, Allah frees us…by taking it away. As a result of it being taken, we turn to Allah wholeheartedly. In that desperation and need, we ask, we beg, we pray. Through the loss, we reach a level of sincerity and humility and dependence on Him which we would otherwise not reach—had it not been taken from us. Through the loss, our hearts turn entirely to face Him.” 
 Yasmin Mogahed, Reclaim Your Heart 

As the sky cracks to open into another world. 
12.25 noon, Malaysian Time

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

.: Visionary spectrum :.

The heart clings to something ... 

Sitting in bed. Thinking all sorts. Just what is the next phase in life? The path that ought to be trod upon? Drifting aimlessly in this transitional life, letting it slide a breath at a time. Opportunities at bay. To pursue in knowledge enrichment, chasing after the sustenance to this very soul or to choose to remain in this static stance?

That does not belong to thee.

8.41am, Malaysian Time