Tuesday, December 27, 2011

.: Journey of faith :.


Hajj confession.


To be honest, I believe we were brought back, or given a second chance purely by the mercy of Allah. We were born in Islam, yet we didn't have Islam. We have the knowledge, we have the practical, but we do not have the spiritual awakening, we do not have wisdom, we do not have the understanding. That is what most born Muslims face. Faith cannot be inherited. It must be cultivated.

Has there ever been a day where the mist disappears even for a split second? Swathed by the wretched pitch darkness of the past, one eventually finds the pleasant momentary bliss that felt as though it could last for all eternity. Thus the once lost traveler embarks on a journey of struggles, to continue living, and holding firmly onto His rope with each passing breath, hoping that He will keep her steadfast in the deen till her very last breath. During times like these, it is so much easier to let the tears fall from the sky, and to be entirely engulfed by it.

Faith cultivation is a lifelong process.
2.52pm Malaysian Time

8 comments:

Ati said...

touchy post....

which reminds me of the path I once travelled where no one wants to take. how lonely.

sippingchai said...

Loved this post. I just came back from hajj this year and I cannot tell you how sad I was when I left. Subhanallah, it is so easy to leave behind the world and just focus on your faith. You are right about cultivating faith. I was born Muslim, but did not completely submit and understand what it meant to be Muslim until college. Since then it has been a struggle every day. May Allah (swt) increase us in our faith, help us with our daily struggles, and reward us with Janatul Firdaws. Ameen.

Ms.Unique said...

So true Hajar !!

Hajar said...

Ati :: Salam sis. Every now and then I remind myself of this statement by Suhaib Webb; "Allah got your back.". Somehow the path doesn't feel that lonely and as tough as before. :)

Sippingchai :: That serenity when one is able to devote and connect to Allah, is what hujjajs strive to maintain once we are back in our motherland. May Allah accept your du'as, accept our deeds and raise us in our ranks. Allahuma ameen thumma ameen.

Ms.Unique :: I'm experiencing hajj withdrawal symptoms again sis! :(

Ikhwan Ng said...

Assalamualaikum.

This entry is beautiful.. May Allah SWT guide us to His right path.

Hajar said...

Wa'alaikum'as'salam Bro. Ikhwan ::

Ameen thumma ameen. :)

Little Auntie said...

What a beautiful post! And a lovely blog! Jazakillah khair <3

Hajar said...

Little Auntie :: Wa eeyaki sis! Thanks for popping over! :)