Sunday, May 3, 2009

.: Empty courage :.


Bad hijabi days.


I don’t normally wear the hijab at home or in a company of sisters.

Me :: I’ll get the door. It must be dad. *gingerly opens the door till I spot an unmistakable not-my-dad figure*
Sis’s little brother :: Salam Sister Siti … I…

And I slammed the door at him.

Sis :: You slammed the door at my little brother??!

I reopened the door after wearing my hijab, to find him still there grinning like The Joker from the Batman series.

Me :: Sorry, I thought it was my dad. I uhh … wasn’t in hijab just now.
Sis’s little brother :: Haha~ It’s ok. I only get to see a bit. You have nice hair. :)
Me :: You did not see anything.
Sis’s little brother :: Haha~ But I did. You should keep it longer sister. :)

Final day in Mecca.

Mum :: So he’ll be coming over to help carry our luggage.
Me :: Owh, alright. *continues eating my lunch*
Sis :: Mum, he’s here.
Me :: What the … crap! Do not come in yet! I’m not in hijab!
Sis’s little brother :: Haha~ Okay Sister Siti.
Sis :: Don’t listen to her. Come in, come in little brother.
Me :: Not yet! *scrambles for my hijab … where is that bloody headpiece?!!*
Sis’s little brother :: Haha~ I think I will wait first.
Mum :: No no. Come in. Don’t mind her. Why are you kicking up a fuss? He’s your friend and he's like a son to me.

I don’t know who it was, but someone threw a hijab on my head. I wasn’t able to put it on properly since my hands were soiled with lunch. Honestly, I was flustered, furious beyond expressions. I kept my head low throughout the whole time, while trying to figure out why I was reacting that way since before coming for Hajj, I wasn’t always a good hijabi.

A change.
11.29am Malaysian Time

14 comments:

Quick It Girl/Asmi's Journal said...

Lol, this was a great post! Masha Allah, I guess Hajj really has changed you <3. (And I've added you to my blog list <3) :)

Hajar Zamzam Ismail said...

Masha'allah! Allah made you shy. :)

van qif said...

Salam,

I've heard,Being shy before ALLAH is "Ihsaan"...He will shy to us during His Interogatory....

nadia said...

And that's a good sign, Sis, mashaAllah. Just like what Sister Hajar Zamzam Ismael said, 'Allah made you shy'. :)

mawaddah said...

masya allah! it is quite a funny story:)so just wondering, u are oing ur umrah now? and hav u been to madinah yet?

Hajar said...

Quick It Girl/Asmi's Journal :: In a way it has. :) But to be really honest with you, I'm still not a good hijabi and there are times when I 'forget'. Not as frequent as before though...

Cool~ I think I've already added you ... I'll check on it again. ^^ Thanks!

Hajar Zamzam Ismail :: I don't know whether it is shy or I plainly freaked out or both ...

van qif :: Wa'alaikumussalam. Heard that elsewhere too.

Nadia :: Alhamdulillah, it is. Though apparently, not everyone is receptive of it thus, one has to be firm.

Mawaddah :: Indeed it was. I suppose it soon became the catalyst for other hilarious scenes. :)

Actually, this happened when I went for Hajj in 07/08. We were in Madinah for less than a week; though not much happened there. As for umrah, Insha'Allah I am planning for it within the next 5 years. :)

Lisa said...

Mashallah he sounds like a sweet spirit. Even though he thinks you should keep it longer. I just loved this story sweet friend.

I'm terribly sorry for having been such a stranger on all the blogs this past few days.

Love you dearly.

Ms.Unique said...

Change for the better ... A good sign indeed though ... Do U know if a persons habits change to the better after Hajj or Umrah or Ramadan it is a sign that there Hajj or Umrah or Ramadan ibadah has been accepted ... :)

Hajar said...

Lisa :: He is. I was struggling to get mad at him for saying that, but it just didn't happen.

Not at all! Comparatively, I haven't been over your privy blog since ages. Dreadful of me ... Insha'Allah, I'll try to do so on Friday. Love you and Youssef. :)

Ms.Unique :: I heard of it when I was there. Up till now, after all the changes, I can't say I am certain of things. But to get this from you, is an assurance and I really hope so. Thanks sis. :)

Hajar Zamzam Ismail said...

Salaams Sis, I'm giving you "link love" with this post. I think it is beautiful and I am linking it to my head-covering carnival. :) Just wanted to let you know.

Hajar said...

Wa'alaikum'as'salam sis. Thank you so much~!!! ^^

Gabriel Mirza said...

That does happen during bad beard days too. :P

I was not sure at which point to start commenting so I am starting with May. Of course I could have started from the very beginning but that would have been a daunting task.

Hajar said...

LoL~ Like seriously? :P

Fair enough. Welcome to the blog. :)

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