Saturday, June 20, 2009

.: Conflict remains :.


Backtracking.


我不明白 … Do you know the meaning?
Yeah. It means I don’t understand.


I won’t be around to teach you anymore …

I won’t be around you like always …

But I am with you … always …
我不明白 …
You will … one day …
我不明白! 我不明白! 我不明白!

From that day onwards, an invisible wall encased me. I no longer laugh, smile from the bottom of my heart since I left it back at the school field. In replacement, lies a heart of stone, gradually eroded over the years ...

... and I’ve finally understood.

Thus, begins the journey to rediscover.
7.29pm Malaysian Time

7 comments:

Lisa said...

Oh I wish your amazing trip didn't have to end habibty. I'm glad you are back safely and hope that backtracking and your inner conflict is short-lived. I loved this post. Love you lots.

salaams said...

totally confused

Ms.Unique said...

Nice ! deep contemplation I think ;)

Hajar said...

Lisa :: It ended a long time ago. But I'm picking up the pieces to embark on the next amazing trip. Insha'Allah. :) Thanks a 'mil & lots of love to you and Youssef. ^^

Salaams :: Not as confusing as whether to address you as Brother Maj or Salaams.

Ms.Unique :: Took me years to figure things out. :) Deep contemplation is one of my forte. :P Haha~

Anonymous said...

call me maj, (im abdul majid)

so whats the blog about maybe i missed the beginning of it or i dont know your story but I read and wondered what is this about.

maybe im just dense. :)

maj

and this identity thing when we comment always annoys me.

serendipitouslife said...

Interesting expression. Wish you success, growth and pleasure in the journey of rediscovery.

Hajar said...

Brother Maj :: LoL~ Time and time again, I tend to showcase a little of my abstract side via my posts. This is one of it. It's a memory of me in my childhood days. :)

The identity thing bugs me too.

Serendipitouslife :: Years have passed, and I'm still searching. Insha'Allah and thanks sis. :)