.: Growing pains:.

Age is just a number.

Ever had a time when you wished that you are older? *or younger?* In my early years, I envied my brother and sister tremendously. They are fairly older than I am, hence there were quite a number of things that I am unable to join in or restricted from doing. Every time I wanted to emulate them, my parents will say I am too young. Because of that, I often envisioned how it'd be like when I'm finally their age, also my mind goes uber frenzy.

In my tiny little head, my brother was Indiana Jones. *now, no longer ... haha~* Later, he hooked me into Mechwarrior, Warcraft, Prince of Persia etc. He contributed immensely to the increase of my spectacles power. In contrast, my sister was the homemaker. She roped me into doing what most girls do. Chores. Honestly, I dreaded it. There were times when I actually broke down and cried because she'll scold me when I didn't do it right or on time. I suppose, the outcome of it is that I learn to be more disciplined, tolerant and levelheaded. The only thing I looked forward to being her age was to get behind the stove. *I love food.*

I briefly recalled a conversation she had with my mum when she instigated me with the chores.

Mum:: "Your little sister is still too young to do chores."
Sister:: "Because she's still young, that's the best time to teach her."

Retrospectively, there were so many things I wanted to do then. Things like driving, traveling, extreme sports etc. As peculiar as it may be, when I've finally reached the actual age, somehow those things are insignificant. Sometimes people are excessively focused in planning for their future; on the things that they want that they literally stopped living in the present. There are people that reflect on their past and regret not doing certain things then. The young ones can't wait to get older whereas the old ones want their youth back. These days, I just take things as they are and am grateful for whatever that comes by. :)

What about now?

12.08noon Malaysian Time