Saturday, November 24, 2018

.: Far Ahead :.

The saga continues.

Almost a month has passed since I submitted my documents to the immigration in Putrajaya. Until now, I have not received an update regarding the status of my application. And I have grown tired of calling and trying to get updates.

I am at my wits' end. I had wanted to bring my in-laws over to spend time with us. We have not met them for more than 2 years, plus the winter there can be horribly miserable. Year after year, the winter season does more damage to their fragile health and they suffer from ailments because of it. Perhaps I was too naive to think I would be allowed to bring them to spend the entire winter season here.

At least I have tried. And Alhamdulillah, my in-laws understand the complexities. 

Yet, I still have that nagging feeling that I could and should have done more. 

Each time I express this to K, he tells me I should not be too hard on myself. Some things are just beyond our control and we should just accept it. Perhaps it is not the right time. Or perhaps, there is a better reason why it takes like forever each time we have to deal with the immigration. Take it as a trial, our trial.

Yes; this is not Jannah. Until the last breath is drawn, we will always be tested. The one thing I keep telling myself each time I feel disappointed with something.

There is still a lot to be learned.

12.48noon, Malaysia Time