Friday, July 17, 2009

.: Dance of the flowers :.


I was 10 when I was separated from my best friend.

I was 12 when I ran back to the exact spot where we last said goodbye even though I know he’s no longer there.

I was 15 when I broke down and cried for weeks in dad’s presence because the pain was no longer tolerable.

That was the time dad hugged me after so long and made sure I prayed congregational prayers alongside him, to seek solace from God.

"I cannot say that I understand your pain. But it is painful for me to see you this way. I cannot replace what you have lost. All I can do is to comfort you. The one that is able to ease your suffering is God. Seek for him. Insha’Allah, you will overcome this."

I was 19 when I opted to make the closure.

I was 22 when I realized I made the mistake of my life through endless denials and sought to set things right.


Now, I’m going through life, believing that even in my darkest hour, God never left me. Concluding that there is a reason why I am unable to let go of this memory no matter how hard I tried and prayed for it.


Things happen for a reason. For each broken piece, we strive harder to attain the next best piece. We do not give up. As long as we keep on trying, our efforts and determination shall be noticed. Afterward, we just leave it to God to move the heavens for us.

Happy Jumu'ah everyone!

5.58am Malaysian Time


Gabriel Mirza said...

Now I suppose it does make sense when you say that you know it fells to lose a friend. Time heals indeed ...

Hajar Alwi said...

I suppose I do. :P

I don't consider separation = lost. Physically, yes. But there are other elements that interlink people besides the physical presence. I won't go to the extent of elaborating further as I'm certain you can grasp the idea I'm trying to put across here. :)

Just to clarify things, this is a friend that is [notice I do not use 'was', so time is still playing with me] considered life itself. Thus, there has been no replacements since then. :)

Ms.Unique said...

LOL ... I thought U lost ur friend in reality like ...

Nice post anyways ... :)

And U r right Allah never leaves anyone ... He's always there to help us ... only we don't realise it ...

Hajar Alwi said...

Sis, I really don't know. This lifetime is, after all, ephemeral ...

Yeah. Realization kicks in when something happens to us ... :(

Majid said...

The thing is you can't always keep recollecting the past otherwise it never leaves.

Not sure if you had a broken heart but if that is what it was then they say the cure for a broken heart is to fall in love again..

Hajar Alwi said...

Brother Maj; true. :)

It's not a broken heart. :)