Saturday, June 20, 2009

.: Conflict remains :.


Backtracking.


我不明白 … Do you know the meaning?
Yeah. It means I don’t understand.


I won’t be around to teach you anymore …

I won’t be around you like always …

But I am with you … always …
我不明白 …
You will … one day …
我不明白! 我不明白! 我不明白!

From that day onwards, an invisible wall encased me. I no longer laugh, smile from the bottom of my heart since I left it back at the school field. In replacement, lies a heart of stone, gradually eroded over the years ...

... and I’ve finally understood.

Thus, begins the journey to rediscover.
7.29pm Malaysian Time

7 comments:

Yasemin said...

Oh I wish your amazing trip didn't have to end habibty. I'm glad you are back safely and hope that backtracking and your inner conflict is short-lived. I loved this post. Love you lots.

Anonymous said...

totally confused

Ms.Unique said...

Nice ! deep contemplation I think ;)

Hajar Alwi said...

Lisa :: It ended a long time ago. But I'm picking up the pieces to embark on the next amazing trip. Insha'Allah. :) Thanks a 'mil & lots of love to you and Youssef. ^^

Salaams :: Not as confusing as whether to address you as Brother Maj or Salaams.

Ms.Unique :: Took me years to figure things out. :) Deep contemplation is one of my forte. :P Haha~

Anonymous said...

call me maj, (im abdul majid)

so whats the blog about maybe i missed the beginning of it or i dont know your story but I read and wondered what is this about.

maybe im just dense. :)

maj

and this identity thing when we comment always annoys me.

Anonymous said...

Interesting expression. Wish you success, growth and pleasure in the journey of rediscovery.

Hajar Alwi said...

Brother Maj :: LoL~ Time and time again, I tend to showcase a little of my abstract side via my posts. This is one of it. It's a memory of me in my childhood days. :)

The identity thing bugs me too.

Serendipitouslife :: Years have passed, and I'm still searching. Insha'Allah and thanks sis. :)